WHO IS THE PUNK YOGI?

MY NAME IS JILLIAN, I'M THE CREATOR AND FOUNDER OF ENLIGHTENED FUCKERY. THIS PROJECT CAME TO FRUITION AFTER REALLY SEARCHING TO FIND MYSELF. I HAVE PRACTICED YOGA FOR MOST OF MY LIFE, BUT AM ALSO AN ARTIST, A MOM, A WITCH, AND A PUNK/HIPPIE FROM JERSEY. WHEN I STARTED MY IG ACCOUNT, I WAS SITTING AT BREAKFAST WITH FRIENDS (AFTER A YOGA CLASS) AND WAS TALKING THROUGH WHAT I WANTED MY USER NAME TO BE. THE PUNK YOGI WAS BORN. A PLACE FOR ME TO SHARE MY 'DO NO HARM, BUT TAKE NO SHIT' LITTLE PIECE OF THE INTERNET.

IT STAYED A PERSONAL ACCOUNT FOR MANY YEARS (IT STILL IS THE ACCOUNT FOR THE REGULAR DAY TO DAY STUFF, THAT OF COURSE I HAVEN'T POSTED ON IN YEARS) BUT THROUGH SEARCHING FOR UNDERSTANDING POST COVID-HAVING A TODDLER, AND A PERIOD OF A MATTER OF SIX MONTHS LOSING MY MOTHER SUDDENLY, MY HUSBAND LANDING IN THE HOSPITAL WITH HEART FAILURE, AND MY GRANDMOTHER PASSING...I WAS LOST.  I WAS ANGRY. I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN PIECING MYSELF BACK TOGETHER.

I WAS IN FIGHT OR FLIGHT CONSTANTLY. THE EMOTION DISREGULATION WAS UNREAL. I WAS IN THERAPY, I WAS TRYING (AND FAILING) TO MAKE ART. I COULDN'T HANDLE IT ALL AND TOOK A LEAVE OF ABSENCE FROM MY FULL TIME JOB IN RETAIL. I WAS READING EVERYTHING I COULD GET MY HANDS ON. I WAS SEARCHING FOR COMMUNITY, BUT NOTICED SO MUCH TOXIC SPIRITUALITY. AND I HATED IT. (TO BE CLEAR, I ALSO IN MY JOURNEY OF DISCOVERY DID COME ACROSS SOME AMAZING INDIVIDUALS THAT BECAME A SPACE FOR ME TO BE ME; AND THOSE PEOPLE HAVE SUCH A HUGE PIECE OF MY HEART) I'M FROM NEW JERSEY. FAKENESS ISN'T EVEN A PART OF MY WORLD. I GREW UP VERY MUCH A BLACK SHEEP WHO DIDN'T GIVE A FUCK. IT WASN'T UNTIL TALKING TO ONE OF MY MOM'S DEAREST FRIENDS AND LEARNING THAT SHE NEVER WORRIED ABOUT ME BECAUSE OF THE STRENGTH I DIDN'T THINK I HAD, AND SHE WAS HAPPY I GOT OUT OF JERSEY.

THAT BROKE ME. TORE ME WIDE OPEN AFTER SPENDING YEARS TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY I DIDN'T HAVE THE SAME RELATIONSHIP WITH HER THAT MY SIBLINGS DID. IT WASN'T UNTIL AFTER SHE WAS GONE DID I LEARN THAT SHE HAD ZERO CONCERN I WOULD BE ALRIGHT. I HAD TO BRING THIS UNAPOLOGETIC, DON'T BE AFRAID TO SHAKE SHIT UP ATTITUDE TO OTHERS.  I HAD TO BEGIN CREATING THE COMMUNITY I WANTED TO SEE. THE PLACE WHERE PEOPLE WHO WANTED TO SAY 'FUCK EM' WOULDN'T BE AFRAID TO STEP INTO THAT CONFIDENCE. HENCE THE PUNK YOGI STARTED ENLIGHTENED FUCKERY.

HOME FOR THOSE WHO NEVER FELT LIKE THEY HAD ONE. HOME TO THE PLACE WHERE SPIRITUALITY, WITCHCRAFT, ART, NO BULLSHIT CONNECTION NOT ONLY LIVES; BUT THRIVES. I HAVE NEVER BEEN MORE AFRAID AND MORE PASSIONATE ABOUT A PROJECT OF MINE IN MY LIFE. EVEN MOTHERHOOD DIDN'T GIVE ME THIS LEVEL OF 'WHAT IF'. BUT IF I DIDN'T PRACTICE WHAT I PREACH, I WOULD BE JUST LIKE ALL THE OTHER BULLSHIT LEADERS AND COMMUNITY FACILITATORS OUT THERE. AND THAT JUST DOESN'T FLY WHEN YOU'RE THE PUNK ROCK, ARTIST, WITCH MOM FROM THE EAST COAST.